New Perspective

I definitely hate not getting what I want. I know that's bratty of me, and recently I've realized what a brat I am. I demand and beg until I get what I want. That's not cool. Sad thing too, I usually manipulate and end up getting what I want. How awful! I wasn't even planning on writing about that, I was going to write about a boy. Wow. I guess I'm asking you to keep me accountable and not give me what I want. But anyway, on the subject of wanting....there's this boy. My close friends know who he is. I think he's great, I just love him to death. And recently, I've realized that I don't NEED him like I thought I did. I went a week without talking to him, and I barely thought about it. It's nice to want and like someone, but yet not be obsessive anymore. Cause I definitely was obsessed. He's so precious to me. I love every little thing about him. I wish I didn't. But I do. And now I'm not depressed everytime we don't talk. But I do enjoy the times we do talk, so much I can hardley stand it. It did bother me a smidge when he didn't care that I was talking about this one new boy friend of mine. He was actually proud of me for making a new friend. But it's okay. I realize that I can't have him and that it won't ever happen. Life will move on, and I'll find God's guy for me one day....